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Saturday, June 4, 2011

Seen As Is

I feel like I am in my own little Groundhog Day... A part of something that keeps happening over and over again... and I'm stuck until I get it right.  The thing is, I'm having a hard time changing anything in order for that to happen.  It's strange really. I know what's happening... I see the truth of the situation, but then I choose to keep responding the same way over and over, knowing I'm going to get the same result.  So the logical question would be, why don't I just do what needs to be done to change this cycle and move forward... to which I would answer, I don't know. One of the million quotes I call my favorite is, "The heart has reasons that reason cannot know." -- Pascal... And boy is my heart stubborn with it's unreasonable reasons.

In my head, when I'm thinking, planning and remembering the facts... it all seems to make sense.  I know what's been happening, what I need to do, why I need to do it, what will happen if I don't... but then, once the time comes and I'm in the moment, I can't help but feel again, and my heart comes in and does it's thing, and it's back to square one.  The beautiful thing of it all, is that right now, when I can write it all down, get it all out of my head, and see how it feels... it's absolutely perfect.  All the pain and repetition has it's place and has brought me here.  Every move my heart has made, has taught me something, and made it easier for my head to understand it. Right now, it seems silly that I ever thought that I could possibly do anything wrong... that I could make a move that wouldn't somehow lead me here... that anything could ever happen that isn't part of the master plan of my existence and evolution... right now it all seems the stars are perfectly aligned.  And it is right now, that I've realized the reason... because I can see them as they are, and not how I expect them to be ;-)

Today's Silver Lining
"Well hey, well that's the way it is. We gotta make a change... It's time for us as a people to start makin' some changes.  Let's change the way we eat, let's change the way we live and let's change the way we treat each other.  You see the old way wasn't working so it's on us to do what we gotta do, to survive."  Changes- by Tupac

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