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Friday, August 20, 2010

Celebrating My Mistakes

We all make mistakes, it happens.  We can do thousands of things right, but at some point we all have to mess up... so why does it seem like such a huge failure when we do?

I was supposed to send something out for work, that honestly I didn't even know for sure if I was supposed to handle or not... so I had just kind of forgotten about it.  At the last minute it was brought up and I took responsibility for it, and it became this big deal. I tried to fix it and now it's a big mess and I'm the one to blame.  I hate feeling like I let people down.  In fact that's why I don't like to make decisions on where to eat, or what to do, because I don't want anyone to be disappointed, and I know I'll be happy with whatever.  Now I have that horrible feeling of letting people down... ick!

So, where's the silver lining?

Well, it's all around me.  I messed up, but the best thing I can do is own up to it, feel this icky feeling, and allow it to remind me that I never wanna feel that again, so to be more on top of things moving forward.  I can apologize, and move on.  Let go of the blame, and allow myself to be less than perfect, because it is through my mistakes and flaws that I'm being used perfectly for every situation I'm in, and growing into whatever I need to become next.  Through my mistakes I'm learning lessons that are making me better and better... woohoo!!

Ironically, I was looking for song lyrics and found this article, that actually quotes my boss, about celebrating your mistakes! 

http://positivesharing.com/2010/06/top-5-reasons-to-celebrate-mistakes-at-work/

After reading it, my huge mistake, feels like a huge gift... I mean, at least now everyone knows I mess up... hehe ;-))

As my mother always said, "You can't cry over spilled milk."  (okay, I cried a little bit, but I stopped, lol) So now, I'll just clean it up and grab some OJ... and maybe add a shot of vodka ;-))

Today's Silver Lining:
"I'm only human, Of flesh and blood I'm made, Human Born to make mistakes, I am just a man, Please forgive me, The tears I cry aren't tears of pain, They're only to hide my guilt and shame." Human- by Human League

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Where I Am

I seem to wander a lot.  I embrace change, and to me home is... well, wherever my heart is. 
I've gotten pretty good at adjusting to wherever I end up, and I guess that will be put to the test as I embark on a three month journey on a bus... a bus delivering happiness... moving to a different location every couple days.  So with so much movement, so much change... how do I stay where I am?

I was reading through old journals in my storage unit today and I stumbled across a funny line,
“Every time I find the meaning of life, it changes.”
Funny how true that is.  It seems just when you think you've figured it out, you have that "AHA" moment of clarity... something happens, and it's all gone.  Those answers, those moments of clarity are just that... moments.  They come when the questions that you currently ask are explained, but inevitably there are always new ones!  After many attempts to find a meaning, I've realized that we give it meaning by what we do... so rather than looking for a final answer, I have instead been creating meaning in whatever I'm doing.  Who knows, maybe that's not the answer either... but the pursuit of growth and evolution is what's exciting.  Action is what makes me feel alive and inspired... it keeps me grateful.  And when I'm grateful, I'm able to be where I am... so no matter where I end up, it always feels like home. 

So, here I am, home sweet home!!

Today's Silver Lining:
"I'll wear my badge... a vinyl sticker with big block letters adherent to my chest, That tells your new friends I am a visitor here...I am not permanent, And the only thing keeping me dry is, Where I am, Where I am, Where I am."  The District Sleeps Alone Tonight- by The Postal Service

Monday, August 2, 2010

Makin Moves

Moving... never sounds fun... never easy, but it sure feels good to move on!  I moved everything out of my apartment in Vegas into a storage unit, and though it was 110 out, and there were 3 flights of stairs to trek down, the highlights were surprisingly positive!!

1.  It only took 4 carloads to move everything I own.... awesome!!!

2.  My storage unit plays lots of Billy Joel and Chicago... lotsa singing along!!!

3.  Threw my mattress down the stairs... realized I can do anything!!!

4.  Used the cart as a skate board to roll my mattress into the unit... fun!!!

5.  Looking inside my unit makes me happy... it's so pretty!!!

6.  Did all of it in a pink tutu... classic!!

So... things are always how you create them.  Moves can be quick, empowering, even fun, if you make them that way!! 
And as I sit here now, so grateful for everything and everyone in my life, I'm totally sure of one thing... I'm movin in the right direction!


Today's Silver Lining:
"And It seems such a waste of time, If that's what it's all about, Mama, If that's movin' up then I'm movin' out. Mmm, I'm movin' out. Ooh-hoo, uh-huh, mmmm, You should never argue with a crazy mi-mi-mi-mi-mi-mind.  You oughta know by now."  Movin' Out- by Billy Joel